I've talked a little bit before about my dress. And about torn feelings towards my dress.
Well, a few days ago I saw a dress from Davids (of all places! For some reason, I hold a serious grudge against Davids.) that would be super easy to shorten to tea/knee length and had a top like I was dreaming of. I sat on that thought for a day as it burned into my brain and then ran over the Davids to try it on.
The top was just completely adorable and I love it. The only part I didn't like was that it poofs out right at the natural waist...so it would be a great dress if you are slightly preggers for your wedding! Of course the sales ladies were there telling me that no one would think I was preggers and that that is how its supposed to fit and that it was just adorable on me and so on. I really wanted that dress to work. Its so close to perfect! But not quite right...not worth it to risk the whole drama of changing dresses on a 'not quite' dress.
Even so, I couldn't get it out of my head. So after talking to my mister and an opinionated bridesmaid, I figured I should talk to someone about altering to see if it could be made into my perfect dress. I get an e-mail response today that says, yes, (based on online pictures and my descriptions) it is likely possible to alter it to remove the preggers affect. It may add a few hundred to the cost of my dress in the end...but it could possibly be the dress I was hoping for.
Now I am completely torn. I feel so stuck in the middle, unable to tell which way I'm leaning because every hour it changes. One hour I want to go for it...run the risk, buy a new dress, and see if this lady can work magic and make it the dress I was hoping for. The next hour I'm telling myself just to go with my current dress. Its a great, flattering dress and the alterations will make it less bridal and more me.
In the end, I just want to feel like myself on my wedding. I don't want to feel like a bridal dress up doll in some overly fancy gown (Note: this is coming from the girl whose most complicated hairdo in her arsenal is the amazing ponytail!). I want to be the best version of myself, not a different self.
Is it worth the risk of buying a new dress when I already have one? Go for the gold or commit to my silver medal dress? What if I take the risk and the dress misses gold and ends up being a silver anyway? What if I can't sell my current dress (anyone interested?) and end up out the money and with two dresses? What if I have no idea what to do!?!?!
(PS Sorry for the whiny post today. I feel like a big baby who can't decide anything and is being a brat looking for her perfect dress.)